Kembara

Ive always admired Dr Asri Zainul Abidin.... he's words, his thoughts, his opinions on matters, on religion, in politics, in life and just the way he views and put words together...

Thank you for being 'you' Dr...we need more people like you around... i wish to be if not equal (err i dont think ever for now....) well, .at least somewhat of a bit of a person you are..... like maybe sikit sangat2 je pun jadi........ plan and plan and read and learn and yearn.....

Ok...ok..enough...tapi artikel Dr Asri pada 16 Ogod di Utusan Malaysia beanr-benar memberi saya inspirasi..... kenapa? kerana ianya begitu jujur sekali..... bukanlah sebelum ini ia tak jujur, kadangkala techniqal sangat so sometimes ill skip the para......and go right to the conclusion....this article, adalah mengenai pandangan Dr mengenai hidup yang kita SEMUA boleh jadikan iktibar dan renung-renungkan..... It made me stop and ponder... yeah i do that often and do that all the time.....

Dr berada di Lampeter ketika menulis artikel itu...samalah Dr, saya juga cuma dapat berdoa supaya satu hari dapatlah saya menjejakkan kaki dan belajar serta mengembara ke sana suatu hari nanti.....Dr sudah termakbul dua'nya....saya? Mana tau....siapa tahu.....well, not to Lampeter per say...but just study, live and learn in the UK....it has always been a dream... for when we explore the world...we learn to adapt and change our world views and we open up our minds and we strive to understand things or people or 'other-different ways' of doing things...of seeing things....of 'experiencing' the moment and 'feel' and touch..... its just the people i want to meet, the great minds i would like to talk with and exchange ideas with...i want to see what they do, HOW they do it......

"Hari berganti, manusia berubah kedudukan, keadaan dan berbagai lagi. Allah mengubah iklim dan warnai hidup kita dengan berbagai cara. Kesemua itu menerusui dalam perjalanan kehidupan dunia. Maka kita pun sedar, kita adalah kembara yang merentasi benua kehidupan untuk sampai ke satu perhentian yang bernama 'kematian'"

"Hidup ini bagaikan lautan yang luas. Kita hanyalah perahu kecil yang sedang menongkah gelombang. Lihatlah betapa ramai yang 'gah' dengan kedudukan dan jawatan mereka semalam, hari ini tiada lagi kemegahan itu. Siapa yang dapat memastikan hari esok membawa bahagia kepadanya? Sebagai muslim, untuk merentasi benua kehidupan ini, tiada lain yang dapat kita bertaut meainkan at-tawakkal 'ala Allah ata bergantung harapan pada Allah. JIwa apabila benar-benar bergantung harapan kepada Allah, keajaiban hidup akan berlaku tanpa diduga" nak menagis baca okay...???

i loved this quote Dr Asri made from Abu Firas al-'Amiri a poet known as Majd al-'Arab ;-

"Berpisahlah nescaya kaudapat ganti orang yang kau tinggalkan. Menggembaralah di bumi nescaya temui petunjuk dalam perjalanan itu. Singa jika tidak meninggalakan hutannya tidak akan garang. Anak panah jika tidak meninggalkan busarnya tidak akan mengena sasaran" - Man, how do people know which book to read......beautiful ey? Arghhhh... nothing is more beautiful than a written word...

People change when they travel.., it will leave a mark, a memory, we learn a thing or two...or some may learn none maybe......if they're intention to travel is only to have FUN and SHOP...how shallow some are...but hey, we come in different packages, we all say......

Imam al-Syafie changed many of his fatwa's when visiting Iraq..also when he saw new things in Eygpt...

We need to change for its vital for our survival..yes indeed..change its not ever easy and can be really scary....but its a necesity... however having said that, we never ever 'change' our Islamic principles...it just grows and we develop further understandings and appreciate different interpretations by different people....

"Hidup adalah kembara. Semua kita pasti akan sampai ke satu destinasi yang bernama kematian. Cumanya dalam kembara di benua yang luas ini, setiap kita melalui denai, lurah, lorong, lembah, jalan dan dataran yang tak mungkin sama. Namun perhentiannya satu, kita akan Menghadap Tuhan yang Maha Adil. Perjalanan pasti akan berakhir. Cuma yang kita rungsingkan adalah bagaimana ianya akan berakhir. - my god, i question that constantly...about almost everything..but this next sentence...... made it crystal bohemian glass clear.... - "namun tiada yang lebih indah daripada perasaan bergantung harap kepada Allah. Benua kehidupan terlalu luas dan menakutkan. Banyak kejahatan dan juga kebaikan. Moga Allah selamatkan kita sema dalam meneruskan kembara hidup."

Lovely Dr....thanks!

Nite! i soooo need to finish my novel and book...and mummy diary..... arghhhhhh! Endless responsibilities....

but as long as we remain calm, serene, collected and focused, we will see how easy it is to get through....i have to repeat this like every day when i start to fluster and get kelam kabut....

its just that - sometimes were the statue and sometimes were the pigeon indeed...i would prefer to be a gull though...wait maybe a dove...urgh..... :))

Love.....
WSF

Frankly....its Franky and its Creepy.....

Mary Shelly's Frankestein....

I dont know why tapi saya teringat sangat dekat Frankenstein..... one of the most famous horror stories of all time...... an epic love story, a study of human relationships, ambition and pride the story also deals with science and was set in the 1700's - the age of enlightenment and reason...... go figure...brilliant this Mary Shelly seorang Romantis.... i likeeee.....

full of parallel, contrast and ironies...gosh sounds seriously like my life...maybe yours too....

Victor was a sad case.... we cant play god.... we shouldn't play with fire.....never ever....never ever...now that song by i dont know who is humming in my mind....never ever.....STOP!!! urgh....the irony of the story is that it all started with love but turned out the utmost opposite....

Frankenstein....the movie directed by Kenneth Branagh portrays real life.....yes it does....cuba tgk balik.....it illustrates the both good and evil qualities in life. It showed the cost of running away from your responsibilities and how it took only one man to create a monster.

Franky was initially not a threat at all....he started out as kind and wanted to understand his surroundings....he longed for friends after learning of love, compasion and acceptance from a distance.... he was fond of the family he spied on....very much indeed..... he hoped the 'family' would appreciate the good things he did for them......

then...ta da....maybe big mistake he made (tapi sampai bilakah seseorang itu harus bersembunyi bukan) - he made his apperane presence - but alas!!! only the blind old man accepted him...the others? they were disgusted by the sight of this Franky 'creature' assuming the initially kind Franky was there to harm them.....

Oh dear...oh my.....physical appearance means so much more than mental capacity...physical appearance means so much more than what someone has inside them to potentially give...... and what struck me was that we all...all of us have a little bit of this ugly character inside of us.....

Tragedy by tragedy confronts him, but his creator was no where in sight to take responsibility... hes creator betrayed him.....Franky wanted revenge......he ran away and opted for the easy way out...just shoot Franky he says....how could you Victor...how could you shoot something you yourself created....

It wasnt his fault Franky acted like that.....you Victor...youre suppose to be the smart one....but initially he lost to a 'monster' he didnt even finish off..... in this case my dear readers...(err ada ke readers?) being 'intelligent' only brought misery......


we all need love......but love alone is never enough, for what is love??? SOmeone once said, okay not someone but a quote or proverb or something like that...." Love is when you lust for whats inside and Lust is when you love what you see".... oh dearie!

We need love, yes we do....but discipline and guidance...being balanced...will make sure we dont turn into a selfish, self centered immature man like Victor Frankenstein ****thunder and lighting bolt strikes*******

Never start something if you know you cant uphold your responsibility to it...you could and many people do...until its too late....well...perhaps we can all learn.... just continue to learn......

Terima Kasih dan Selamat Malam!

AAAAAAAHHHH bestnya dapat menulis.....

live and love...please....

what do you do...what do you do......

thank you...i say just thank you.......

no matter what or how you are living life...you can always excel and change things...make things better...

live life or love life...... do whatever u can within your means to live and love life..... with the most important people in your life...your family.......

Reading

Reading........The best book that soothes my wondrous, on-the-go (as someone once put it) soul has to be reading the QUran.... its an exquisite book really.... magnificent poetry inter-winded with beautiful magical storytelling that touches you deep down.......amazing.... unexplainable....

Tonight was surah at taubah- literay means repent.... A chapter on Repent....How If someone does not keep to their word and promise, then we should always fight back... for a promise should always be honored.....Always.......but if they repent, if they then realize what they did was wrong.... forgive them, for God Forgives and accepts those who repents their wrongdoings....

We should also always give "time" for people 'to think' about something.... such in the case when the 'enemies' went against their word in Makkah....they too were given 3 months to think and make a choice.....just goes to show...never ever make a decisions hastily.... and always allow a little time for humans to get into gear...and drive their thoughts with reasoning to their intended destination.....

Im giving myself "time"..... to ease, to think, to see what will happen..... it hurts...but it shall be a part of me and life i shall cherish...berani buat berani tanggung......

I felt so calm after.....which is right now...... Im gonna do more reading..trying to make sense of Friendmans the World is Flat..... though economy and free market capatilsm isnt really my cuppa of little black beans..... but if its gonna effect me.....might as well........ decaf yes...without sugar too! Nite...

:) Aaaaaahhhhh books...what shall art thou without???

Oh what a Malaysia im living in..... street protests....tear gasses...YB's dying...bullshitting by politicians... fake nonsense here and there....

Education, helathcare a huge issue i wish and i care...a population of the old not being cared for...the menatally ill, the poor, the single moms, the whore, the addicts......... oh what a Malaysia im living in....

Too much bickering, too much talking.... people dying and no one wants to take the blame....shame...shame...shame!!!!! Oh wait, toooooo much corruption.....toooooo much...as if we dont know.....hulur sana...hulur sini...baru boleh jalan, baru boleh beri........it makes you wonder it makes you think....

You give sweets and worthless candy treats.... when the cake you cut and eat it piece by piece.... The cake...the cake.....well, its only for friends and family..... so tag along...behind my tail coz im behaving like a monkey!

Frustrated i mite be..frustrated as you can see me..... i still believe in goodness...i still believe we can make a diffrence merely by our actions and sincere intentions.....

Not all are bad, but what makes me sad? Makes me sad...and drives me mad...... the potential to be the best....to care for the rest.... wasted...wasted....wasted..... coz people dont use theyre brains to think no more....!!!!

This blog is here coz my thoughts need to be clear..... i WANT to think...i want to share coz at least i care....about whats going on inside there... inside where? Everywhere especially...up there.... up here....

Anyhow.....What a LIFE im leading..... just like the Malaysia...i too have issues and troubles that needs to be sorted ot....coz like Malysia the potential i see in myself....its huge...be the best i can be, hey it aint easy..... tapi kata, 1Malaysia...... jadi saya pun nak ikutlah!!! huhu

Rite i end this rambling....by saying.....perceptions are crucial.... and perceptions need to be managed.....

The end.....

Its ME

I feel lonely,
I feel empty,
Yet i have everything going on for me,

Its...me...its me that will make things happen for myself and my family.....

I am ridiculous to think that someone else will be able to fill my emptiness....

someone else i dont even know....someone else that wouldnt even care....

Its me...its me that will determine my future.....based on actions....based on determination...

I need to keep the fire burning in me...... Please dear Lord, dont let it die.....