Whispers through the Air

i cant be the one....
whos going to ask around.....

dont ask me why...
though i could try to justify...

not to you really..
explaining to myself merely....

silly...silly....
that will always be me...
try to compose and be merry...
merry i am...and really happy...

happy i will be even more,
if things be as they were before....

a substitute just wouldnt do,
couldnt find the connection between the two....

it comes it goes...
it disappears and it glows....

always will be there...
no matter how, when or where....

even though not there...
i dont dispare.

i still feel the whispers....
as if your lips close to my ear....

i keep on going....
coz even though not there...
you send me magic and courage through the air......


-dina-

Lipstick....

i want a new lipstick...
i want a clock that's antic....
i want to paint something artistic.....
but maybe just a lipstick that's oh so fantastic....

WAIT!!! or a new bag thats authentic.....??

i hate all the politics....
what? u said its democratic???
to me its just so,so problematic....
and people get incredibly pathetic....

i need a little kick....
but nothing too drastic...
something that is therapeutic...
like reading something poetic.....

dont be sympathetic..
coz im not going to be apologetic...
i like people who are sarcastic...
but please dont try any slapstick...
and stay away from me plastic!


what oh what do i need really?

i sound lunatic?
i would like to believe its instead exotic...:)

i know you like it...
just dont get too frantic...

Now i know what i need....

dont mean to be too simplistic...

but what i need....IS....

just a nice new bright red lipstick...
that will be just oh so fantastic!!!

:)))

-dina-

Penat

penatlah...im just sooo penat when things stay stagnant...

for an exciting adventurous soul like myself...its killing me...
when things dont change and people are complacent i cringe...

you dont get it do you.... things wont change if YOU dont change!
Change is never easy...so please get out from that ridiculous comfort zone and go and do something!!!

Saya dah penat...penat menunggu

its hard to go through things and do it alone.........

How, now brown cow?

im loathing something,
It keeps on ringing...
It keeps on occurring,
It keeps on showing....

Its not shining,
its just damn irritating....

Im missing and wishing,
for that something,
yet i know it never aint happening....

What do i do?
Just keep on wondering,
Have got to keep on praying,
Have to go on changing....

i dont like hammering....
nor do i like stomping...
but i got to keep on drilling....
otherwise ill keep on sighing....

its so, so , so difficult...
the choices i made brings insult...
i actually just need result....
i know who just to consult.........

so here i go again....
go cracking my brain.......
im missing the rain....
and i feel the strain...

here's what i live by....
"no pain no gain".......

so let me try to gain...but i feel too much pain....

-dina-

FLY or FLY......?

theres just too many things to do.....

im not looking back....
So dont take me of track....
im smashing the potions of the rack....
it fell down with a smack....

leaves turning dry,
i look up to the sky,
i let go a sigh,
then started to cry.....

but im not looking back,
so dont take me of track.....
though i feel all black,
i refuse to crack.....

i shall make myself high,
i will try and try.....
till i reach the sky...
soar up there and just fly................

-dina-

My Path and Past.....

I am writing this entry after solat subuh...i just felt the urge to write....

...i just need to let it out....

the path... it was bumpy, windy and memorable at the same time....

oh dear Imrans awake...i have to go.... plus i have one paper this morning at 9am...

ill finish this entry...later...promise.....

just ponder upon this for a second "most people attempt something before they give it up....but yo have already define your limits by testing them..."

i have to give it up...yet there's a part of me that shrinks into a small ball when i even think about it.....

wish you all the best...i wish myself too.... till then everyne....

MEN! I ove em.....

Imran….my boy… I never knew how to handle a BOY…. I love girls…. But IMRAN we….saya dan suami selalu berkata ?(ceh lupa nak tulis dalam BM)….ok…. Imran satu anugerah buat kami. Memang tak pernah dijangka, tidak dirancang tidak diduga….
Anak-anak…anugerah dan AMNAH…ramai yang lupa… amanah ini terlalu berat…. Bukan untuk diberi makan, minum dan pakaian sahaja…. Bukan diberi tugas mendidik pada guru dan ajaran feqah dan tauhid pada uztaz semata….

Siapa yang bertanggungjawab? Kenapa selalu ibu dan isteri? Memang benar….peranan ibu sangat besar… ramai yang saya lihat tungng langgang, perngai nya tak seberapa tu sebab tak rapat dgn ibu…atau ibu mereka ada masalah… TETAPI… tugas yang utama saya berikan kepada BAPA…. Bapa bertanggungjawab menjadi nakoda….”Peliharalah dirimu dan keluarga mu dari API neraka”….

Sabda Rasulullah “Dan lelaki adalah pemimpin keluarganya dan dia AKAN DISOAL mengenai kepimpinannya”..Allah tak soal kita wanita…. Hadith by Bukhari….


Bapa entah kemana….dilepas ‘beban’ mendidik pada isteri…bapa sibuk mencari rezeki…TAPI..knock2….isteri pun sama ok? …maslahnya kajian menunjukkan ramai lelaki di penjara kerana maslah membesar tanpa ayah…ramai wanita bohsia…kerana tidak rapat dengan bapa…..buat bapa yg ada anak remaja perempuan..tolonglah go on a date with them…puji anak gadis anda…. Bina hubngan supaya anak lelaki anda percayakan anda…its all about trust….dia tak percaya, budak2 ni tak akan cakap dgn kita….

Anak perlu diajar solat….macamana nak solat bila mak bapak tak solat….asyik kejar akademik semata…soalt nya tak pernah nak amik kira….soalt is CRUCIAL…tiang agama..ramai sangat orang melayu islam tak soalt sekarang ni…scary….


Orang lelaki merempit, meragut, yang di serenti lelaki….yang di university….?? Yup, 60-70% WO…MEN..wanita….Anak lelaki kini ramai yang malas dan tidak bermotivasi…bapak lepak kedai mamak…isteri jual sayur di pasar…dari dulu lagi kita dah perhati senario begini… ingat saja gambaran wanita-wanita di pasar KOTA BAHRU Kelantan…dari dulu lagi gitulah….

Bukan nak menghentam lelaki ok…I love the men in my life.. silapnya bila kita selalu kata anak lelaki “boleh jaga diri sendiri”…. Buku Cool Boys Super Sons” by Jamilah Samian adalah buku yg sangat elok untuk dibaca bagi mereka yg ada anak lelaki…sekarang dah ada dalam BM…dkt MPH ada….. pada ibu bapa yg kurang beri perhatian pada anak….sudah masanya berubah….kata Jamilah kita kena ingat ni betul-betul..


“Good behavior is NOT about obedience…its about DOING and STAYING AWAY”…. from bad things that is….

Kita jangan mengukur baik anak pada mereka yg mendengar kata..tapi jika boleh berkata Tidak pada benda yg tak baik… itulah “perangai yg elok” sebenarnya…. Kita harus benarkan anak2 menyoal dan bertanya kepada kita…jangan kata anak menjawab pula….


Semalam sempat dengar Tun Mahathir punya talk untuk Gender Series talk untuk NAM Institute for Empowermant of Women… NIEW at Mariot…Tun said the same thing…. Women..theyre acquiring more knowledge..theyre willing to face challenges..

Men..u guys just need to buckle up… I want my Imran to be “that men I adore…” ceh Natalie Imbruglia pulak…. Oh Imran….what and who will u be…. I shall wait and see…Imran Arrazi…maybe ull learn to love and know Ar-Razi and may HE indeed be your inspiration….a muslim scholar… with iman and knowledge dear…..

BTW…its Imrans 1st bday today!!!! Ummi loves you sayang….so very much!