Lipstick....

i want a new lipstick...
i want a clock that's antic....
i want to paint something artistic.....
but maybe just a lipstick that's oh so fantastic....

WAIT!!! or a new bag thats authentic.....??

i hate all the politics....
what? u said its democratic???
to me its just so,so problematic....
and people get incredibly pathetic....

i need a little kick....
but nothing too drastic...
something that is therapeutic...
like reading something poetic.....

dont be sympathetic..
coz im not going to be apologetic...
i like people who are sarcastic...
but please dont try any slapstick...
and stay away from me plastic!


what oh what do i need really?

i sound lunatic?
i would like to believe its instead exotic...:)

i know you like it...
just dont get too frantic...

Now i know what i need....

dont mean to be too simplistic...

but what i need....IS....

just a nice new bright red lipstick...
that will be just oh so fantastic!!!

:)))

-dina-

Penat

penatlah...im just sooo penat when things stay stagnant...

for an exciting adventurous soul like myself...its killing me...
when things dont change and people are complacent i cringe...

you dont get it do you.... things wont change if YOU dont change!
Change is never easy...so please get out from that ridiculous comfort zone and go and do something!!!

Saya dah penat...penat menunggu

its hard to go through things and do it alone.........

How, now brown cow?

im loathing something,
It keeps on ringing...
It keeps on occurring,
It keeps on showing....

Its not shining,
its just damn irritating....

Im missing and wishing,
for that something,
yet i know it never aint happening....

What do i do?
Just keep on wondering,
Have got to keep on praying,
Have to go on changing....

i dont like hammering....
nor do i like stomping...
but i got to keep on drilling....
otherwise ill keep on sighing....

its so, so , so difficult...
the choices i made brings insult...
i actually just need result....
i know who just to consult.........

so here i go again....
go cracking my brain.......
im missing the rain....
and i feel the strain...

here's what i live by....
"no pain no gain".......

so let me try to gain...but i feel too much pain....

-dina-

FLY or FLY......?

theres just too many things to do.....

im not looking back....
So dont take me of track....
im smashing the potions of the rack....
it fell down with a smack....

leaves turning dry,
i look up to the sky,
i let go a sigh,
then started to cry.....

but im not looking back,
so dont take me of track.....
though i feel all black,
i refuse to crack.....

i shall make myself high,
i will try and try.....
till i reach the sky...
soar up there and just fly................

-dina-

My Path and Past.....

I am writing this entry after solat subuh...i just felt the urge to write....

...i just need to let it out....

the path... it was bumpy, windy and memorable at the same time....

oh dear Imrans awake...i have to go.... plus i have one paper this morning at 9am...

ill finish this entry...later...promise.....

just ponder upon this for a second "most people attempt something before they give it up....but yo have already define your limits by testing them..."

i have to give it up...yet there's a part of me that shrinks into a small ball when i even think about it.....

wish you all the best...i wish myself too.... till then everyne....

MEN! I ove em.....

Imran….my boy… I never knew how to handle a BOY…. I love girls…. But IMRAN we….saya dan suami selalu berkata ?(ceh lupa nak tulis dalam BM)….ok…. Imran satu anugerah buat kami. Memang tak pernah dijangka, tidak dirancang tidak diduga….
Anak-anak…anugerah dan AMNAH…ramai yang lupa… amanah ini terlalu berat…. Bukan untuk diberi makan, minum dan pakaian sahaja…. Bukan diberi tugas mendidik pada guru dan ajaran feqah dan tauhid pada uztaz semata….

Siapa yang bertanggungjawab? Kenapa selalu ibu dan isteri? Memang benar….peranan ibu sangat besar… ramai yang saya lihat tungng langgang, perngai nya tak seberapa tu sebab tak rapat dgn ibu…atau ibu mereka ada masalah… TETAPI… tugas yang utama saya berikan kepada BAPA…. Bapa bertanggungjawab menjadi nakoda….”Peliharalah dirimu dan keluarga mu dari API neraka”….

Sabda Rasulullah “Dan lelaki adalah pemimpin keluarganya dan dia AKAN DISOAL mengenai kepimpinannya”..Allah tak soal kita wanita…. Hadith by Bukhari….


Bapa entah kemana….dilepas ‘beban’ mendidik pada isteri…bapa sibuk mencari rezeki…TAPI..knock2….isteri pun sama ok? …maslahnya kajian menunjukkan ramai lelaki di penjara kerana maslah membesar tanpa ayah…ramai wanita bohsia…kerana tidak rapat dengan bapa…..buat bapa yg ada anak remaja perempuan..tolonglah go on a date with them…puji anak gadis anda…. Bina hubngan supaya anak lelaki anda percayakan anda…its all about trust….dia tak percaya, budak2 ni tak akan cakap dgn kita….

Anak perlu diajar solat….macamana nak solat bila mak bapak tak solat….asyik kejar akademik semata…soalt nya tak pernah nak amik kira….soalt is CRUCIAL…tiang agama..ramai sangat orang melayu islam tak soalt sekarang ni…scary….


Orang lelaki merempit, meragut, yang di serenti lelaki….yang di university….?? Yup, 60-70% WO…MEN..wanita….Anak lelaki kini ramai yang malas dan tidak bermotivasi…bapak lepak kedai mamak…isteri jual sayur di pasar…dari dulu lagi kita dah perhati senario begini… ingat saja gambaran wanita-wanita di pasar KOTA BAHRU Kelantan…dari dulu lagi gitulah….

Bukan nak menghentam lelaki ok…I love the men in my life.. silapnya bila kita selalu kata anak lelaki “boleh jaga diri sendiri”…. Buku Cool Boys Super Sons” by Jamilah Samian adalah buku yg sangat elok untuk dibaca bagi mereka yg ada anak lelaki…sekarang dah ada dalam BM…dkt MPH ada….. pada ibu bapa yg kurang beri perhatian pada anak….sudah masanya berubah….kata Jamilah kita kena ingat ni betul-betul..


“Good behavior is NOT about obedience…its about DOING and STAYING AWAY”…. from bad things that is….

Kita jangan mengukur baik anak pada mereka yg mendengar kata..tapi jika boleh berkata Tidak pada benda yg tak baik… itulah “perangai yg elok” sebenarnya…. Kita harus benarkan anak2 menyoal dan bertanya kepada kita…jangan kata anak menjawab pula….


Semalam sempat dengar Tun Mahathir punya talk untuk Gender Series talk untuk NAM Institute for Empowermant of Women… NIEW at Mariot…Tun said the same thing…. Women..theyre acquiring more knowledge..theyre willing to face challenges..

Men..u guys just need to buckle up… I want my Imran to be “that men I adore…” ceh Natalie Imbruglia pulak…. Oh Imran….what and who will u be…. I shall wait and see…Imran Arrazi…maybe ull learn to love and know Ar-Razi and may HE indeed be your inspiration….a muslim scholar… with iman and knowledge dear…..

BTW…its Imrans 1st bday today!!!! Ummi loves you sayang….so very much!

Miror...mirror...on the .....

FAT...Mirror mirror..... THAT CANT BE ME!

yes, seperti mana wanita lain i AM obsessed with my body image....WHY? Why you ask?
Is it because i AM not confident with myself? no....not relly....i love ME....the complicated, me.....Is it because of the images in VOGUE and of Angelina Jolie despite having 3 kids looking damn good....

Is it because when youre FAT...and when your hips widen up you look horrible....susah nak cari baju...jeles dengan wanita lain yang slim??? The answers to thse questons are YES...!!! YE...BETUL...Na'am..... dengan ini saya sesungguhnya mengaku....

Now, now....IF youre comfortable with who you are and youre okay being overweight..... i salute you.... betul..its what you have to offer and who you are that matters most..BUT........

Im not....not comfortable... i have issues.... so what do you do? DIETLAH..apa lagi....persalannya kenapa diet selalu tak menjadi? Sebab kita CRASH diet...hari ni tak makan, esok makan.... Let me list the errors i see myself making....

1st - TAK CONSISTENT! Jap diet, jap tidak! Diet buang karbo...comlex carbs...yg putih2....BUANG...jangan makan! Buang chips, junk food..... and kuih muih!!!

2nd)- air tak minum! KENA minum air putih SAHAJA!!!!!! 2 botol mineral water setiap hari....untuk memudahkan pembuangan toxin DAN lemak!!! Tak leh minum kopi dan teh dan air BERGULA!

3 - TAk excersice...its 70% det 30% excersice....thats the rule! Tak leh lari.... kena excesrsice SETIAP HARI!!!! i usually excersice.... dah lama tak excersice, sebab tu yg down tu...alasan? tak de masa? CARI MASALAH!!! yes excersice is crucial for the MIND too...helps you sleeps better...bagus untuk orang-orang depressed....huhu...bukan saja badan cantik, trim, tapi sebab excercise releases endorphines..... which are chemicals produced by the neurons....communicating through the synapses.... synapses ..the synapes is the area where neourons meet..tapi dont touch each other...(wah...amazing tuh...)it just realesses chemicals..known as nerotransmitters ... okaaaayyyy..... what the??? masa sekolah tak amik bio....add maths amik....tapi result JANGN tanya, haha...ni tgh belajar bio...best ya ampun!!! so endorphines ni salah satu chemical tuh la....mcm jugak serotonin.... it gives the 'feel good' factor to you....banyak lagi mcm types of neurotransmitters macam acetylcholine (antara yg femes).... dopamine.... FINE! tu yang drugs dicipta....they are made to mimic nerotransmitters so boleh membantu menambah atau mengurangkan apa yang perlu dengan 'memutar belitkan' process transmisi synaptic ni.... oh FINE!

oh yes...nak loose weight...ikhwan pun malas dengar i membebel pasal brains and neourans and the CNS nih...sian driku ini! Tak pe...tak pe..habis satu dinding i tampal...haha...



4 - Makanan sedap tak tahan!!!!!!!!!

fine! im not giving up!!!

tapi cuba tengok gambar tu.... macam masa anak dara dulu lagi chubby je.... kan...???? NOPE..im serious...kurus macam angelina jolie..... sebelum 1 januari 2010! So new year resolution SHALL NOT include loosing weight ok?

haha...wish me luck!!! Whoose with me....?

One day.....

The dream..... of paradise.....the meticulous details... the splendor of the spaces...the rich history....the genious of islamic architecture.... everything to represent the One.... the Illa-llah... the doctrine of tawhid... there is an intimate connection between faith and asthetics in Islam. Its the desire to give aesthtic expression to the proclamation of La ilaha-illa-llah...... How?

I studied this....and its beautiful...makes me want to cry.... for Islam is trully, wonderfully beautiful.

Islamic Architecture in form, design AND spirit is inspired by just that..... the tawhid of One.... its the embodiment of the Islamic principles and its values or thats what it should be....

The avoidence of naturalism, or charecterisation made the Muslims think ahead into more creative 'designers', builders, crastmn and of course architects......

"For every Muslim, the asthetic realm, the beautiful, is that which directs attention to God.....it is not symbolic truths of nature. Instead, the beautiful, for the Muslim, is that which stimulates the viewer or listener as intuition of, or an insight into, the nature of transendence....- the late Dr Lamya Al Faruqi-

One of the most striking features of Islamic Architecture is the focus on the enclosed space, for Islam emphases what is important is the internalization of faith not its external manifestations........The enclosed space SHOULD be the most important element....The facade should tell us just a little abut the building...but when u step inside...when penetrated and entered...you experience it from within....MasyaAllah....- the concept of this 'hidden architecture'..... should be grasped into our lives and souls as well.....

important fact there...just imagine the dome.... from a distance its nothing...just a structure but when you look at it from the inside.....as you get closer...it sinks into mazes of cupolas, arabesques....calliagraphy... have you ever thought of that....just pure beauty!

its just a place i wish to step foot one day...i believe it will inspire me....i would love to share it with someone who shares the dream......

.....you.......

I just want ...............
Being around.........
Smiling with..........
Sipping, drinking, talking and laughing.....

Crying, Sharing, Thinking with......
Inspiration and dreams....
Share it with.........

Stay with me,
Hold my hand.....

Dream with me....
to....
Never Land........

ps/ brighten up my day...show me the way....
so much in me i just want to say.....under the moon... i wish to stay.... but the silence.... it doesnt make my day.... ill just continue to pray, that this feeling.... wont ever stay? Or maybe one day...... My skies will no longer be gray....:)

Yet Another......

Nothing is more dangerous than an idea when it is the only one you have.
Emile Chartier


people say i dream too much, too many ideas.... so many things i want to do...... all i have to say is LET ME DO IT..if you cant and wont support me then..... just you know, keep quiet..... dont bring me down and trample on my spirit...coz if you do, knowing me ill just get back up again.....

I fall 7 times ill just get back 8....

i know.... And to everyone reading...... heres what i have to share tonite.....

“Courage is the discovery that you may not win, and trying when you know you can lose.”

“Enthusiasm is excitement with inspiration, motivation, and a pinch of creativity.”

“Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow.”

Good Night then....